On the daily I get slapped in the face with the epiphany that I'm a mom..woah! It feels so surreal to me at times. I mean, I still fell like a kid trying to figure this world out-not perfectly put together, know-it-all mom, I expected myself to be.
But being a mom isn't about the success you achieve in life. And it's not about having the laundry put away and making home-cooked meals. And it sure as hell isn't about having it all figured out.
It's about love. Period.
When I became a mom, I learn the true meaning of love. Being a mom opens up a chamber of my heart that I didn't know existed. It puts my world in perspective and teaches me the true meaning of life. Family. Hope. Love.
Some aspects of my life before becoming a mother were better. Easier. But I don't think I really lived until I was a mom. Because now I'm not just living for me-I'm living for them. I don't just have the weight of one life on my shoulders. I have the weight of more. And I feel stronger than ever. Empowered. I'm doing exactly what I'm meant to be doing. Maybe every day isn't great and maybe I still have a ton to learn, but that may just be the best thing about being a mom. It provides you with the greatest opportunity for growth and development and learning imaginable. Not to mention the rewards. The simple rewards- the smile, the laughter, the "I love you's"-they far outweigh any rough mom moment.
I don't have much figured out. I change my mind daily on my hopes and my dreams. Even just deciding what to make for dinner throws me for a loop. But the defining in my life- the one thing I am certain of and exceptionally proud of it this:
I'm a super hero, super mak- I'm a mom.
And I wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING.